So many days,so many emotions,so many encounters,so many experiences!Just when you think that you are mature enough to stay stolid,you are thrown off gear,not knowing what to say or do or even think in a given situation.People walk in ,pass remarks,the atmosphere not conducive for thoughtless acts or gestures.You think that adults can conduct themselves well without guidance,they can be subtle and solemn during an event when there has been a tragedy and for those who have been near and dear to the departed soul carry on so that there is decorum.But for one who observes from a third person's angle,certain behaviour is loathesome.
There are people who wail and weep,there are those with euologies,the "religious"hues-all so meaningless in this heavy grief laden moments for the ones who have known and cared for the one who has now left behind his dear ones with only his memories to hold on to.Yes,some believe all these rites and rituals take the one who has gone from this world directly into the land of the Gods.And that his path into this "Promised land"will be smooth.Is there a heaven or hell?Are all sins committed by one knowingly and unknowingly be forgiven by the All knowing omnipotent One ,just because some ignorant ones just chant without knowing the even the meaning of what comes out of their mouths without any emotion?
After going through these excruciatingly painful hours,I retire to a room, just sit alone, reminicising years spent with the one who now will never return either to entertain or trouble,pray for his soul to rest in peace.Then I feel at peace with myself.
